hi !
hi everybody, i haven't been on here for a while and i'm going to sleep soon but there's something that perhaps You can help me with.
usually i can decipher my dreams quite well if i think about them throughout the day, but these are just strange, i mean, i'm not really "hiding" from anyone..
so, ever since maybe the fourth grade i have dreams about intruders in my house or outside the window or whatever. i should probably take note about the kind of day i had when these dreams occurred, etc. etc. but these occur consistently at least twice per month, sometimes a lot more.
i have no idea ! sometimes the person is actually someone i fear, and sometimes it's just a werewolf or a scary man. most recently, it was a man who wanted to make me and my sister into sushi. it's never a woman, which is strange.
sometimes the blinds don't work or the sun comes in and they can see me. when i was younger, the dreams would include my whole family hiding from the intruder but now it's just me, and sometimes pearl but rarely. i remember one from about 6th grade where my father bravely fought off the men (there were helicopters and lots of flashing lights and men in black suits !) and used a laser gun to make them good people.
i like dreams because they don't cost money to make one entertained, they are actually really good for You (the whole sleeping deal) , and sometimes they help me figure myself out better.
i dunno,
maybe it has something to do with rude male teachers, my own feelings of sexism (that shouldn't be there), wanting to be alone, or unwanted advances from silly people. who knows.
???
also i wanna hear about Your recent dreams and stuff so yes. C:
thank You charizard :D
thank You for the response !
hahah my mom got us pokemon on netflix ...
anyways !
today i got home and i was alone and i felt really safe, like the way You described it. it was nice.
i think that is correct. he is a protective figure. but now i have to protect him sometimes too, which is weird...probably because now i'm getting bigger and he's getting smaller. he's looking at xylophones right now.
about the conditioning - GUH !!! when bratz dolls first came out , or whenever it was that i first saw one, i remember how huge their eyes and lips were and how weird their bodies were. and that's seriously a grain of sand in the bucket of things i would say about that here but...another time...
most men/boys/males that i know are great/wonderful/nice, even though they act differently sometimes in certain situations to what is expected of them, but i guess i probably do that too - sometimes i'm quiet when it is and loud when it is.
OH ! so maybe it's either me thinking that orrr my unconscious want of a baby brother. except You'll have to give me a minute to develop that idea because i am not sure why i thought of that now.
yes yes yes i looove dreams about traveling. have You ever had a dream traveling with a dog, cat or bird? i think those are the best.
aside from generally feeling intense emotions recently anyways, i get super anxious (?)thinking about it, or really, it's unexplainable - i need to go somewhere in the arctic circle sometime in my life, preferably to live with diminishing peoples of either the nomad inuit group or those who live in the cold year round. oh i like the desert a lot too, and the national parks. C:
oh and another idea..maybe the 'scary' person is me ? in man form. once it was like that sort of, but that was after drawing pictures of myself as half lemur and then sleeping. i'm probably scared to unleash the man in me
>:)
yay
im so glad that you also came up with the same name for my brother as i did. it shows the name suits him very well.
hahah
My sister calls me charizard.. : )
What a great example with the Bratz dolls, even the name implies ideals..
You should try directing the intensity of your emotions toward fulfilling what you'd want. For example, next time you feel really anxious about visiting inuit people, take that passionate energy and start planning how you will make that a reality... Not only will it reduce your anxiety, (because your actually doing something about the very thing your anxious about) but you'll be making progress on the goals that you love..
I highly suggest the book 'Getting Things Done' which provides a simple and highly effective method for organizing your thoughts into actions, so you can start making progress with your goals..
the basic principles of the GTD system are:
By writing each step out and answering them, you will notice that your understanding of what you want will become much clearer and doable. : )
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Your house is a place of safety, you feel in control and alive..
An intruder seems that it would be derived from a sense of feeling not in control, the intruder is now in control, and you have no safety- in which case people have been conditioned to fear any situation they are not in control of.
You father, being a protective figure, protected you from the control of the intruders.
You probably don't dream of women intruders because you have consciously and unconsiously become comfortable in their presence, and still maintain a feeling of control. In other words, you don't fear the possibility of women over powering you.
My guess is that the reason they are males is because there is an underlying fear with not being control in the presence of males.. not necessarily like a fear of death, more a fear of uncertainty, which leads you to feel a lack of control. This could be either from past personal experiences that have impacted your collective consciousness, and/or from conditioning through media, i.e. the manly brute and somewhat primitive almost gorilla like nature of a "Man" that is inconsiderate and lacks the caring, loving, sensitive nature, of which the sterotypical "Women" is depicted.
By the way, if you do happen to notice that conditioning may have played a role.. don't feel foolish for being conditioned.. It happens to everyone, just think of how sitcoms depict how to interact and express feeling to loved ones- they make simple problems as dramatic as possible, which consciously or subconsciously teaches you how to interact in that situation. Its just like little girls watching Disney movies that depict the 'popular' girl as someone everyone likes..
To a young and developing girl, they see how the 'popular' girl dresses, and how they treat others. They learn from this... This is actually a serious problem, imagine how many students in schools promote ideals that were taught to them through dramatic television shows..
The only way I know to change the deeply rooted feelings, are to re-condition yourself.. By expressing yourself, your feelings, talking with others, and recognizing propaganda that is attempting to brainwash you and your loved ones..
I have recently been keeping a dream journal, I love it.. Its a great way to stimulate your dream state, my dreams often involve me traveling somewhere, in an airplane or boat, sometimes i'm just at the airport or by the ocean.. This I believe is related to my future, because I have so many ideas about what I'd like to do and where I'm going in life.